Tuesday, November 29, 2011

52 Week Project : Week 11

For this week's project, I challenged myself to consider how I view myself.

Unfortunately, this is the result.



Sooooo,
those bad boys were not meant to make it back into the new bathroom.
(The scales, not the ugly pj shorts!)

I made a deal with myself.
Out with the old, in with the new.
Bathroom and head space.
I reneged on my part of the bargain (with myself) - and there they are.
And there I am - on top of them.
Ev.er.y. day.

I may have overcome a destructive relationship with food,
but this love/hate relationship with the enemy scales
is not as easy to kick to the curb.

Apparently, I need to know what I weigh.
Why?
That part I still haven't quite figured out.

So I can love or hate on myself accordingly,
I guess.

BAH NAH.
Wrong answer, I know.
But as my Daddy always said to me
"Shar, for a smart girl, you do some very stupid things."
Ev.er.y. day.

Linking with beautiful My Mummy Daze and the 52 Week Project.
Pop over and check out some healthier (self) images.
The 52 Week Project
Shar :-)

17 comments:

dosweatthesmallstuff said...

Shar, from what I've seen of you so far, I think you look beautiful just the way you are. From the bottom of my heart, girl. But I know, that doesn't make the need to check your weight go away. I only hope that you remember, even during days when you don't like what you see on that scale, to not let it determine your happiness or how you live the rest of your day. Much love to you, dearie.

Karla {Ironmum Karla} said...

Woo hoo sexy legs! and nice set of scales to go with them. It is just a habit for you I guess, something like all habits you will have to work on breaking;)

Dre @ no frills mum said...

Unfortunately us women jump on the scales far too often, me included. I guess we have to make sure a number does not define us, affect our moods or self esteem, which can be hard.
You're sporting a great pair of legs there though and some flash scales to boot!

Me 'N My Monkeys said...

My scales and i also have a love, hate relationship. xx

Jane said...

Oh Shar. After you opened up the other day with that post, I am intrigued to see this photo. I bet so many women would look at those legs and think "Wow! If only I had legs like that and knees that didn't meet together". You look fabulous. J x

PS The captcha for this comment is 'refed', if you can believe it!

danneromero said...

i never weigh myself..

i go by how my jeans fit... getting too snug.. i just cut back a bit...

Vicky said...

I only ever weigh myself at the doctor's - who then records it (thanks for that!)

How hard would it be for you to go into your new sparkling bathroom, pick up the scales and chuck them out?

A long time ago I had a bed, that was made for me by someone that I erradicated from my life. I hated that bed. But my husband only saw it as a bed, not what it signified. And so I felt silly for wanting to get rid of it. Long story short, it got the better of me, I went and brought another bed frame which needed to be restored, and my husband just didn't get around to it. My anxiety grew. One day I just decided enough! We will sleep on the damn matress on the floor, pulled the mattress off the frame, dragged the frame outside and destroyed it. It was one of the most freeing things I have ever done.

Just a thought. x

Peggy said...

I go through stages of weighing myself every single morning, and I can truthfully say the result can draw a smile or a grimmace. And at times it will remind me that chocolate daily is not a good thing. I think I use it in a healthy way most times (to keep me on track) although admit daily use might not be the best idea.

Posie Patchwork said...

Oh you're so lucky you have nice feet too, mine are wide & flat, not pretty & every Summer i sigh at my feet, window shopping pretty strappy shoes & life continues with Birkenstocks. Petty issue but an issue none the less.
My husband says "for a smart girl you some very stupid things" or maybe "many stupid things" too. They love us regardless, honestly is fantastic. You're getting healthy, mind, body & soul, best of all, winning, love Posie

Sonia @ Life Love and Hiccups said...

Just look at your gorgeous legs Shar - you are fabulous...SERIOUSLY!!
Chuck those scales ASAP and be kinder to yourself hun.
I am sure after what you went through, that is easier said than done. But truly hun - you are gorgeous, and should not be wasting a good worry! :) xx

Mama of 2 boys said...

Shar, you're an absolutely gorgeous woman, inside and out. You do not need the scales, just pick them up and throw them in the bin... it will be a cathartic experience. We don't even own them in this house, because I completely understand once they're in your life, it's too easy to be controlled by them. Weight means nothing, it's how you feel in your clothes that's the key.
Next week I'd love to see a pic of you throwing them out ;o) xo

Daisy, Roo and Two said...

I understand that obsessive need to know! I actually threw our scales out!
Now, I weight myself on the Wii weekly - but that's a part of my weight loss journey, and I'm doing my best not to be obsessive!
You are a seriously gorgeous woman, and check out those bloody gorgeous legs!!

Teresa said...

I threw my scales out years ago after a long period of engaging in an OCD type running/weighing routine - it has been one of the most liberating things I have ever done.

The other benefit of course is that I have stayed the same weight for years (apparently);)

p.s you have terrific legs regardless of how much they weigh.

Kate Sins said...

You need these - http://pinterest.com/pin/267087353/

I do it nearly every day too and know that it doesn't matter what anyone else says, it's about how you feel.

The slightest dip makes me feel wonderful and the slightest increase gives me palpitations - then my mood is dictated accordingly for the day. Sigh.

Everyone else has already said all the things my gut tells me is the right thing to say but only you will be able to come to a point where you feel it yourself.

I'll draw on my scales if you draw on yours...

xxx

Thea said...

Sadly I am right there with you.
Not on yours...on mine!
Ev.er.y day. Sometimes more that once.
And right now they're making me feel like cr.ap. because they keep on going up and up and up.

I think your pj shorts are very cute, by the way! :)

Lee said...

I am with Thea I bloody love your pj shorts and you have awesome legs hun. And abs. I've seen those too. You are stunning on the outside, but more importantly you are beautiful on the inside, I can see that by the way you live your life and your vulnerability and your great sense of humour.

I know you don't believe me but they are just numbers. Maybe try to cut back to every second day and see how you go?? xxx

Lifeasmummymax said...

I am just the same lately. I cant help it. I think you have great legs! & ultimately those scales cant tell you anything else but a number :)